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Saturday, July 7, 2012

Missing Big A

Life is good Alhamdulillah what with the new baby and all. I think I've adjusted with Adil's schedule..more or less :p I admit sometimes I do get the occasional panda eyes from tending to Little A in the wee hours of the morning. But Alhamdulillah it's not that often. Little A's a peaceful quiet baby Alhamdulillah.

On the other hand, I'm missing Aqil badly. My parents came to visit earlier and they took Aqil for the night to sleepover at Bangi. For the 25 months 3 weeks of his life, Aqil has never spent the night without at least one of his parents around. I've never had to separate from him during the nights ever before this. Well..except last 2 weeks while I was in hospital after delivering Adil. At that time it had to be done because takkan nak suruh Aqil tido kat hospital pulak kan...kesian je die nanti. Besides, I was too drowsy and in pain that I didn't have the time to bersedih-sedih. Plus, H was looking after him so I know that he'll be ok at home with his Abah. He slept with H for 2 nights without me and luckily I was discharged on the 3rd day and get to go back to home sweet home.

And now, as I am typing this, Aqil is in Bangi with his grandparents and aunties. He was so excited to get to follow them back tadi. Mama yang sedih tau. H macam takde perasaan sangat. When I voiced out my kesedihan to him, he said "Aqil's a big boy now. You have to let him go. Macam citer Nemo tu (Aqil's favourite cartoon at the moment)." Huhu. Yelaa..I know he's a big boy and I have to let him go some time or other. But does it have to be now?? Huhu.

Sedih :(

Missing Big A...my big baby Aqil. Although he's an abang now...he'll always be my little baby.